I love superheros! I often think about what kind of superhero I'd like to be. Some recent events put that to rest. I've come up with the ultimate superhero. I'm not sure what my alter egos name would be. Whoever reads this blog can help with that. First, I want to share with you what abilities my superhero would have.
I would have the ability to take the most difficult day of someone, and live it. Completely take that day away from them. Now there would be consequences for me of course......Like Superman's kryptonite. A real superhero doesn't worry about stuff like that though. Bring on the kryptonite!
Doug, I would have taken on that leukemia, and spit in it's face! Shannon, the cancer that was supposed to end you, would have never had a chance to meet you. My brother Dave, whatever needed amputated, would have been removed from me! Drew, the pain that your child goes through, would now go through ME!
That is a true superhero! I know that the old lady getting her purse snatched is important, but I'm changing the lives of MANY! What am I talking about anyway? This is all make believe. It's truly how I feel though. I would love to be able to take all that pain away........Even if it meant the end of me.
So what is the name of my superhero? I don't know. What I do know is that many people I know, battle things everyday, that Batman would never take on. Maybe the real hero's are Doug, Shannon, Dave, Mariah. They fight the kryptonite everyday. Sometimes they win, sometimes they lose. Either way, they all make us stronger.
Gavin, I wish I could take away those needles. Ally, I wish I could make you walk again. Grandpa Baker, I wish I could make you feel young again. Nicole, Kameron, Trinity, and Mirryn........I wish I could make everything right.....EVERYDAY! Just have comfort in knowing that you are all heros to me. I learn from every one of you. Ultimately, this blog is for you.
What's my name? -blink
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
37
Thirty six years are gone. I feel like I've already lived an entire lifetime. For the very few people that understand me, you understand the choices I make. Some decisions are easier to make than others. Every once in a while we face those "lights out" decisions. Decisions that can and will alter the lives of many. Those are the toughest decisions we face.......The ones that hurt the most.
I've made some of those "lights out" decisions in the past. Some of them turned out okay......Some, not so much. Ultimately, I carry the weight of my choices on my back, and hope for the best. People hurt over the choices I make sometimes, but no one carries more pain than me. I try to do what's best for everyone involved. If anyone is going to be unhappy when it's all said and done......I want it to be me.
As my 36th year comes to an end, I would like to share my birthday wish with everyone. I know that I'm not supposed to do that, but since I don't believe in that shit anyhow, I figured it's okay. Honestly, this is the first birthday wish that I really do want to come true. In years past, I couldn't remember my wish the very next day.
I wished that everyone would take me for who I am. I'm not always right. Forgive me when I'm wrong. I wished that everyone that holds a special place in my heart, would never forget the man they love. From my wife, my kids, and my family, to the most special friends in my life.....You're special to me because you gave me a chance. You chose to overlook the many flaws that I have. I wished for peace to those I've hurt.
I always have the intent to infect people with my goodness. It doesn't always work out. I guess sometimes we need to renegotiate.......change the facts. Maybe I need to grow some balls. Nikki Sixx wrote, "If you obey every time someone says you can't do this or you must do that, you will become the person you NEVER WANTED to be."
I just want to be a good man. I want to follow my dreams. I want to surround myself with people that inspire me......that make me right. I think I've done a pretty good job with that. For those of you that "get me," please stick around. I'm sure I've failed all of you in some way or another. Just remember that nothing is written in stone.......until we die. -blink
I've made some of those "lights out" decisions in the past. Some of them turned out okay......Some, not so much. Ultimately, I carry the weight of my choices on my back, and hope for the best. People hurt over the choices I make sometimes, but no one carries more pain than me. I try to do what's best for everyone involved. If anyone is going to be unhappy when it's all said and done......I want it to be me.
As my 36th year comes to an end, I would like to share my birthday wish with everyone. I know that I'm not supposed to do that, but since I don't believe in that shit anyhow, I figured it's okay. Honestly, this is the first birthday wish that I really do want to come true. In years past, I couldn't remember my wish the very next day.
I wished that everyone would take me for who I am. I'm not always right. Forgive me when I'm wrong. I wished that everyone that holds a special place in my heart, would never forget the man they love. From my wife, my kids, and my family, to the most special friends in my life.....You're special to me because you gave me a chance. You chose to overlook the many flaws that I have. I wished for peace to those I've hurt.
I always have the intent to infect people with my goodness. It doesn't always work out. I guess sometimes we need to renegotiate.......change the facts. Maybe I need to grow some balls. Nikki Sixx wrote, "If you obey every time someone says you can't do this or you must do that, you will become the person you NEVER WANTED to be."
I just want to be a good man. I want to follow my dreams. I want to surround myself with people that inspire me......that make me right. I think I've done a pretty good job with that. For those of you that "get me," please stick around. I'm sure I've failed all of you in some way or another. Just remember that nothing is written in stone.......until we die. -blink
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Let It Go
I decided to write a poem about the recent events surrounding my family. Poetry is very special to me but writing it can make me very emotional. This will be freestyle.....so to speak. Freestyle to me is writing what you feel as quickly as possible, and never changing the results. My freestyle usually lasts less than 5 minutes.... I will post my time at the end of the poem. I hope you all enjoy it!
I dropped off Kam,
I'll miss her so,
She's with Allie, had to Let Her Go!
Picked up Caitlyn.
She had a glow!
Glow turned to screams!
I gotta let it go!
Make a choice, pay or NO?
I made the wrong choice.
Gotta let it go!
224 heading east.
That S10 became a beast!
Did all I could? I think so.
Either way....Gotta let it go.
Door won't open?
Don't think so!
Get to the kids!
Then Let it GO.
Lot's of chaos,
then 5-0!
Right then and there,
I should have let it go.
Everyone's safe,
that should be good to know.
I couldn't shake it......
Couldn't let it go.
After today, I won't look back.
Even though my life was knocked off track.
From this point on,
have PEACE and know.....
That I Ray Hobbs, could let it go.
7minutes
I dropped off Kam,
I'll miss her so,
She's with Allie, had to Let Her Go!
Picked up Caitlyn.
She had a glow!
Glow turned to screams!
I gotta let it go!
Make a choice, pay or NO?
I made the wrong choice.
Gotta let it go!
224 heading east.
That S10 became a beast!
Did all I could? I think so.
Either way....Gotta let it go.
Door won't open?
Don't think so!
Get to the kids!
Then Let it GO.
Lot's of chaos,
then 5-0!
Right then and there,
I should have let it go.
Everyone's safe,
that should be good to know.
I couldn't shake it......
Couldn't let it go.
After today, I won't look back.
Even though my life was knocked off track.
From this point on,
have PEACE and know.....
That I Ray Hobbs, could let it go.
7minutes
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Simplicity
"Simplicity" by definition means one thing "the quality or condition of being easy to understand." Raymond Matthew Hobbs does not fall under any footnote of that term. I am not simple. I am far from it. Many people claim to know me, but they really don't. This blog is not about me though, it's about you.
Remember the time I was twisted up in a blanket, and shoved into a closet? Of course you don't. Hey, HEY, nobody remembers that. Remember the time I lit the woods on fire?! Of course you don't. I never told you. Remember the time I watched my father get his head slammed onto the steps? NOPE! You don't remember that, because you never knew it was there.
Even though "simplicity" is an easy term to understand, it's really not so simple. For instance, life is not simple..... Yet a dandelion has life. We all walk through a field of dandelions, kicking them, picking them, and flicking them. I guess life is really simple! Why does a dandelions life hold less value than our own?
It doesn't! But human beings think they're at the top of the food chain. Yet we all forget the simple things in life. Does anyone remember what it feels like to hug a homeless man?.....Hungry...ALONE! Of course you don't, because most of you have never done it! Simplicity (to me) does not mean "the quality or condition of being easy to understand!"
If "simplicity" meant what we're told it does, then we would never kick that dandelion. We would never smack our spouse. We would never pin our father down on the steps, and wait for the cops to arrive. It's pretty easy to sum up.......Simplicity is not so simple.
Every one thinks that love is tough. It's not so tough. Everyone thinks that life is tough. It's not so tough. Love makes life simple! Life, if you live it, makes love simple. They go together. You will never really live unless you really love. As complex as I am, I can honestly say, that I live.........and I love! It's that simple. Maybe now I'm not so hard to understand. -blink
Remember the time I was twisted up in a blanket, and shoved into a closet? Of course you don't. Hey, HEY, nobody remembers that. Remember the time I lit the woods on fire?! Of course you don't. I never told you. Remember the time I watched my father get his head slammed onto the steps? NOPE! You don't remember that, because you never knew it was there.
Even though "simplicity" is an easy term to understand, it's really not so simple. For instance, life is not simple..... Yet a dandelion has life. We all walk through a field of dandelions, kicking them, picking them, and flicking them. I guess life is really simple! Why does a dandelions life hold less value than our own?
It doesn't! But human beings think they're at the top of the food chain. Yet we all forget the simple things in life. Does anyone remember what it feels like to hug a homeless man?.....Hungry...ALONE! Of course you don't, because most of you have never done it! Simplicity (to me) does not mean "the quality or condition of being easy to understand!"
If "simplicity" meant what we're told it does, then we would never kick that dandelion. We would never smack our spouse. We would never pin our father down on the steps, and wait for the cops to arrive. It's pretty easy to sum up.......Simplicity is not so simple.
Every one thinks that love is tough. It's not so tough. Everyone thinks that life is tough. It's not so tough. Love makes life simple! Life, if you live it, makes love simple. They go together. You will never really live unless you really love. As complex as I am, I can honestly say, that I live.........and I love! It's that simple. Maybe now I'm not so hard to understand. -blink
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